Questions.

You keep on pushing me away but where should I go?

I'm trying to get over you, but why can't I?

I've asked you what should I do, "go" you said.

My heart's crying out loud, it's deafening but you don't hear a thing.

I feel so alone though I'm laughing with my friends.

Should I stop myself from giving and so maybe I could receive something too?

It seems so easy for you but ain't for me.

Am I not worthy enough of something that I could be happy?

I have a lot of questions so little time and nothing is ever answered.

Waiting For You

Little by little I'm losing hope and it feels like I would give up then suddenly just a thought of you makes me feel alright. I don't know who you are just yet but I promise for whoever you are, I will wait for you but please promise me too that you'll be here with me just on time that I needed you here.

I'll be waiting...

Till you're finally here.

Damn

Damn you.

I hate you.

Friendship

I never knew it would be like this..
and hate to admit that there's someone I miss
A friend that has been there through my ups and downs
Who makes me smile whenever I frowns

Where are you now?
One call is okay somehow
I miss your smile, your eyes, your laugh
But a thought of you, for me is enough

I've seen you today
Hoping that forever you'd stay

But you seem undecided

And what we have is always one sided

I have took the risk

Hoping everything will turn to a bliss

But it was a mistake all along

And our everything went all wrong.

People

VIP's.

Rich.

Poor.

Celebrities.

Low class.

High class.

What's the difference?

Aside from money, cars, houses and food they eat..
they are all people who are trying to live each day..
trying to continue their routine everyday..

Each one has a story that I may never know...
Some I may knew personally..
and a lot I honestly don't..

Some says their lucky,
some says their not...
But how did they exactly know?
They never live each other's lives..

No one can ever feel the way anyone's experiencing..
SO no one has the right to judge anyone!

Sometimes people are becoming judgemental each day....
but have they tried to look at themselves..
or maybe they did and found out they are breathing in darkness..
and just want someone to hold..

We will never know, unless we stand exactly where they stand...
which
by the way
is
IMPOSSIBLE...

Longer..

It's been a long time since I have written something about random things..
It's been years since I have looked inside me..
And ask what I see.. And what I want to see..

Today I wanted to assess myself..
Have I become a good person since then?
Or have I just stayed as I am before?
To tell the truth, I don't know and maybe I never will..
Coz a lot of times I still don't know what I really want..
I still do things I don't supposed to be doing..

I think, I laugh, I cry, I frown...
I talk much and listen less..
I'd rather run than to walk with someone side by side,.
I hide, I run, I search...
I'm stupid, I'm confused, I'm crazy.
and sometimes I'm even stubborn.

I hurt.

I'm hurt.

I forgive.

I love.

As days gone by.. I am still me.
Only...
BETTER.

=))